I finally found the ingredient that was missing in all my previous relationships: forgiveness.
Besides the fact that I repeatedly dated needy, jealous, dramatic, alcoholic, narcissistic, energy vampire, borderline personality disorder types, my relationships failed because I failed to forgive.
My marriage is infinitely sweeter now that I am no longer clinging bitterly to expectations and resenting my partner when he falls short, no matter how reasonable my requests seem to me.
I give myself and my partner permission to mess up endlessly; to selfishly waste time and money and to be forgiven even for our own inability to forgive.
Newly armed with this panacea to soothe any interpersonal wound, my ex-boyfriends don’t seem sinister after all, but simply in need of forgiveness.
The floodgates of my heart swing wide open and I feel pure love wash our transgressions clean.
When I get lost in the humanness of my life, may I return home to a heart connected to the Divine.
May I be both forgiven and forgiver.
I finally hear you, sacred silence.